Dear Sis,

As you know, Jenna and I are home from Maui.   It was an incredible holiday.    I always return so full of emotions.

But these emotions and feelings all get put into the Vortex – the core central place of everything and anything that has created me.

Over the years, I have practiced this.  I have analyzed why certain things or people affect me.   The more I practiced the more tuned in I became with my feelings.     The only thing that we can control are our thoughts.   So once you start changing your thought process, things start to feel better.

Now, I will say, that I did just finish a 1.5 hour session – via Zoom – where I received lessons/guidance from someone who is very capable of tuning into a “higher power.”  lol as I was typing this I started to laugh because I can hear our brother saying, “OK freak sister, tell me all about how you talked to the spirits.” 🙂

It was beautiful Karen.   A friend bought this very thoughtful gift for me.   I actually have the video recording, so post this blog I am excited to go back to listen to all the details.   The biggest message that I got from this session is that I need to continue living my life with love.    Love is always surrounding me.  Oh but I also found out that I was way more “sexual” back in my 114th past life 🙂 So interesting right ??  See just because I am not having sex doesn’t mean I am not sexual, right ???  hahahaha

Lately, I am feeling very connected to my higher self – my higher consciousness.  So the timing for this session was perfect and I am so very grateful.

When I was in the condo in Maui, I felt Don’s presence.   I truly honestly did.

His clothes are still hanging in the closet.     There are notes with his hand writing on them.   A box with all the manuals for the A/C, fridge, stove ect.   All so neatly placed with his writing on most of them.  He was always so organized and detailed.

But as I looked around and saw all these “things” that is not what was making me feel.  It was me seeing him standing in the kitchen, with that wonderful smile on his face.    It was him looking down on us – especially the first night when we arrived at midnight, and unloaded all the groceries into condo and we went to move the car into correct parking spot and the door behind us closed and locked – lights on, groceries on the floor and all I had was a car key – we were homeless the first night !!! – and yes Don/papa shaking his head and saying, “You girls are not off to a good start”.  As we wandered around -at now 2:am – It was Jenna who commented about what Papa would say but we both could “feel” him saying it.

Karen, Jenna is really growing up.  She is now 14.   We only had one fight on the trip and that is because – as she calls it – we were “hangry”…yes we were hungry so it made us angry.     We had an outburst on the street in Lahaina because we could not agree on a restaurant.

One night, we went to an evening festival, with food trucks, vendors and live music.  She and I went right up to the dance floor and started dancing to these old rock /blues songs.  So fun.   As we walked away she said to me,”Did you see that homeless guy dancing?   I loved watching him !!!  He just looked so happy.   I feel happy because I see him being happy.”  And then she said, “Oh now I feel bad because I am being judgmental….I only said he is homeless because he has a shopping cart.”  I love everything about that entire statement. Well done Jenna xo

As we waited in line at the airport to check our bags, there was a family at the front of the line.  The younger “teenage” son, had Down Syndrome.   He sat away from his family, up against the counter playing with his stuffed animal.    When Jenna saw him she said to me, “Look mama, look at.him.  He looks so pure.”   I too saw it.  He did look “pure”.

I love that she is able to not just see, but feel goodness.

When I arrived home, my friend Geke and her husband Ian were staying at my place.  We were able to share their last night in my home and my first night home, together.    31 years ago, Geke was my room-mate when I worked at Jasper Park Lodge.    We had such a great visit.    I absolutely love her with all my heart.  We have always called each other “soul sisters.”

As we sat around that evening her husband Ian is a musician .   He played his guitar and sang for us a song that he had recently written post his 8 month travel to Asia.   Inspiration for this song came to him when he met an artist in Melaka, Malaysia.   An artist, who for 30 years, everyday, walked up and down a hill in order to sell his sketches in the market.     He learned to greet tourists in their own language.  A man who connected with people everyday.

The song is called, “The Ant Man.”  Chorus, “The world needs more people like you.”

Since I have returned, I will definitely keep this momentum going.   It’s easy for me now.   One you know how good it feels to – let go – life becomes easy.

There are people in my life who understand all about vibration and being happy.  Geke is one of them.   We call each other “soul sisters”.     We both learn so much from each other yet we are very similar in so many ways.

When Geke was diagnosed for a second time with cancer, she made many changes in her life.

When I asked her if she could teach 5 lessons to the world, what would they be….

Here are her lessons….

1. Lighten up, it’s just a game.   I used to worry so much about life until this message came through in one of my meditations.   It made me laugh out loud at the time and I’ve reminded myself of this powerful piece of advice many times since.  It’s liberating.
2. BE your authentic self.  For years I was a people pleaser because I feared rejection and yet by being a people pleaser, it was me that rejected me.  Now I live authentically and no longer worry whether people like me or not.
3. Live outside your comfort zone, that’s were growth is.  We can only measure what we lose but can’t see what we’ll gain so it can be super uncomfortable but when you trust that the “unseen” future is so much greater, you’ll take the leap of faith.
4. Meditate daily.  By quieting my mind, I am able to hear my higher self.  The guidance of my higher self is a greater source than 99% of the advice of other people.  I have promised myself to always listen to my higher self, my intuition and it’s inspiring.
5. Let go of resistance and surrender to everything under the sun.  “What you resist, persists”.  When I finally let go and surrendered (after hearing that the cancer had spread from my breast to my reproductive area) I allowed all the resisting emotions to come up to the surface while holding them with compassion and love instead of judgements (emotions such as fear, anger, guilt, shame, ect) I did this over a span of several months and I started to finally be OK with who I was and felt a loving gentleness towards me that is there till this day.  It’s what finally go me to love myself and it healed my body of cancer.

Karen,  I know I say this to you often, but you have given me a gift.

Words cannot even describe how much I miss you.

I love you sis,

Kathy xo

ps.  Your friend Lu texted me these pics of you.   A couple of weeks ago your kids texted saying they did not like your new haircut so I wanted to see what it looked like.  I agree, too short and you need some colour.  Linda is going to make that happen for you.

Karen, the reason I am sharing these pics, is because when I look at them, I see you.  I see my beautiful sister who is trying so desperately to stay in this world.  I love how I can see your “eye” in the corner, looking out.   Just trying to always see what’s going on.   Your willingness to live – I know so much of it has to do for your kids – is amazing.

It has been 1.5 years since I started this blog.    It was just before I travelled to Bali for my 50th.  I took the MSA shoe with me.

I am always living my life excited for the “step”.  I don’t even care where it’s going as long as I am always moving forward.    I am now starting to think “what’s next”.    I am just in the beginning thought process – and I asked Geke if she would do it with me – to start a podcast so you can listen to my stories ???  lol I know you would love that.  Anything to keep you engaged and in the loop 🙂

 

I am not going to post any pics from Maui – as Jenna put together this fabulous video.  I think it tells the story just how great our holiday together was…..